Hello :)

 Hi there! I am Dani. Right now, I am a 25.5 year old woman loving in a small town in Johannesburg South Africa. 

I don't know if anyone is ever going to read this, but it doesn't much matter. I've always enjoyed writing as if someone else is already reading, like I am talking to them in that exact moment. And how fitting that you can not reply, as I am well-known not to leave room for others to speak. I often joke and say I am a serial conversationalist... though I become very self aware and feel 'less-than' when I notice how I dominate conversations. I tend to then go silent and will spend the rest of the social gathering telling people I am fine when they ask me "What's wrong? You're so quiet!" 

What is this you are reading? Well, my thoughts, I guess. All the things that I leave unsaid, or wish I had said differently. All the feelings I never tell people I have and all the wrong I face in this world with no power to change it. 

I would like to warn you..

I am not some cutesie, Pinterest blogger girlie with her shit together. I am diagnosed BPD (Bipolar) and suffer from Manic Depression. I also have a tendency to lie, a lot. And before you judge me, I grew up in a very abusive home, and lying became a survival technique. One I'd now like to unlearn. That's why this blog is here. So I don't feel the need to lie... no one can hurt me here, right? 

I am well educated, I have my Bachelor's and Master's degrees in Counselling and am now studying further on a post graduate level (education). Well.... 

The Bachelor's and Master's degrees are from a bogus University that has me down R30k and up nowhere in my career as it relates to my degrees. 

My eldest sister lives in New Zealand with her husband and small daugther (about 2 years younger than my son) and we visited them last year for their wedding. We loved the country and am now doing our teaching degrees so that we can also move there. 

Anyway, there is the first nugget. 

Thanks for reading, good luck!!